//LOVE.AND.SURPRISES//
//My.Love.Lost.and.Found//
Hey guys..let's talk about love and life today..
why do we need to find love?? is it true that we have to search for love..and what is really love??
Love and Life..well they are full of lies and expectations that we probably will never fulfill...i seriously don't understand life and am even more confused when it comes to love..why do people fall in love?? i mean love hurts...BAD!! and yet everyone is looking..searching for that thing called love..why?
well i guess the pure joy and happiness of love for juz a little while beats the hurt that love brings along with it.However for me love is still painful and the pain that comes with love lasts a life time..a quote from my mum- "THE JOY OF BEING IN LOVE LAST FOR ONLY A SECOND,YET THE PAIN THAT LOVE BRINGS LASTS A LIFETIME"however it doesn't mean that i d0n't love..hahaha..love for me comes in various forms and not just that one kind of lovey dovey BF.GF type of love..that's the kind of love that hurts the most apparently..hahaha..
oh..well enough about all this love hurt stuff..im bored..haha...now im going to share my love story. Being me,im the type of girl that when i fall for someone..i fall hard and deep..which a special friend of mine told me is very dangerous..The 1st time i've fallen in love was when i was in form 3...and eventhough things didn't work out..i've still loved him for years..even when im already in MMU..until that fateful night at a musical event when i saw someone...It was LIKE at 1st sight for me..but then im realistic and i dissmissed him as just another one of my crushes..then fate took toll whereby since that night..i always seem to see him around campus..and being me i would gush to my friends about how cute he is and bla..bla..bla..GIRLS!! hahaha.....And then,i don't really know how nor do i care that time..we suddenly became friends and then even closer friends..I would bug him everyday..telling him everything,making him wish me goodluck for my presentations and exams..i would give him goodluck cards and chocolates..just for the fun of it...everytime we chat online..all we ever do is argue..like who's better,cuter and all the stupid things you can argue about..arguing with him is a lot of fun..ofcourse he always wins as he just loves to bully me but still that's the way things are between us and i was happy.He always seems to be there when i needed someone to talk to or someone for me to pour my feelings or when im all stressed out he would be the one to destress me.He seems to know what makes me feel better and how to make sure im alright....and i guess that was how he made me fall for him..
Unfortunately for me the one guy that makes me happy is always the one guy that's wrong for me and the one person that would make me sad...
quote from a song
" The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart"
yeap that's him~~
Life as we all know it is unfair and as things turn out..
i found out that nothing is ever what they seems...
and neither is he...
i found out things that made me sad..
saddest i've ever been my whole life..in this month that had passed i've like my heart was broken to tiny pieces that can never be mended..as i had never liked anyone as much as i liked him..My fault for not being realistic...the thing is i don't really know him nor do i understand him or the way he thinks..nor do i want to know...i've never felt as broken as i am now..you know when u called and said that you never thought i'd be the one to do that to you...let's just say that the statement goes vice versa....now im much happier and im coping well in my life, i still feel broken but with the help of my beloved friends,family and a certain SUPERMANand his girlfriend...im happier and living life one step at a time..to Mr.Superman thank you for always reminding me to be happy always and supporting me all the time and the fact that you cared is enough to put a smile on my face and thank you for introducing me to your GF..she rocks and i'll always remember what she said the first time we had a conversation,that he's not worth one drop of my tears nor one frown on my forehead..and ofcourse to my cousin ika who is always by my side everytime i cried..thanx for your willingness to listen to me choking because i cried too much no matter what the time was. I love you soo much and i also love Nabil and Qila and heck even Jaja..WITHOUT YOU GUYS,i'd probably still be moping around crying too much and wasting my life..i Love you all....you see eventhough i thought i lost LOVE the truth is that when i lost him i found more LOVE than the one i lost..i found love in my two new friends and more LOVE from my ever eternal bestfriend(sayang kamu atika) and the friends i could always count on...Love is a weird yet wonderful thing..it can come in many various unexpected ways..it may just surprise you on where you'll find it.....soo don't try to find love...it will find you..i can definitely say that im much happier now than i've been before...and that
LOVE had finally found Me
<3<3<3
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