writing to clear off my mind...

Saya busy.tiada masa sangat untuk mengupdate kan blog.
hehehe..well it's mostly because im the type of person yang suke waste her time day dreaming or talk nonsense and annoy people than do something constructive with her time:P

okeyhh soo what's new? hurmm..well the last few months was awesome..that was last sem lah..
i had soo many new friends and telah melakukan pelbagai activities yang ranging from stupid to productive to tiring yet soo much fun..new things and all that semua during nak dekat finals..bagus betul kan? student yg hebatt;) karaoke for hours,movies and movies again,searching for food regardless the time and place..memang gila lah kan~ macam free sangat je dulu kan..hahahaha..semua salah azrul.abu.bob.anep.kakmira.jami.joy.dll.disturbedd~

butttt that was sooooo last sem..this sem started out quite nicely to be honest..walaupun kami missing seseorg kerana die perlu berpractical,we had fun trips and outing still with all the rest lah kan..jonker la..alor gajah semata2 nak cari cucur udang and coconut shake lah..truly unforgettable laa..but the best would be our picnic trip to pd..ramai2 sgt kott..had a picnic there..and though the planning and execution of the trip was extremely exhausting, it was definitely worth it.My friends and i are in charge of the food..and imagine having to cook for 20++ ppl. memang kenduri laa kan.Mereka kata macaroni saya sedapp(saje je nak bangga ni!!)

.having fun our way.

All in all it was fun..everyone had fun tetapi as usual kami yg mengada n gedik ni mmg xlahh nak main2 lari kat pantai kan..panas.pasir.and us? not a very good combo..hahaha..soo what we did kat pantai would be what we do best..camwhoring laaa!! hahaha..and after penat berposing maut..we just sat under the shades on the lazy chairs yg kami sewa rm3 satu kerusi tu and watch everyone else ber banana boat and also mandi-manda and bermain bola di tepi pantai.tengok orang je pun kami sangat seronok kot.hahaha,anyway PD sgt funn:p

As life goes on mestilah ada ups n down kan...
soo after that segala yang up up dan happy happy berakhir mestilah tiba mase untuk menangis pula kan?....but at first biaselah life resumes..classes dah start balik.. lectures and all..and in addition to that i was elected as hi-comm of mmusic..saya pun xtahu kenapa..mungkin mereka suke backdrop ENCORE yang kaler2 tu kott:p hahahaha~ and everything seems complete..i seem to have everything tetapi ada this not really prominent feeling that im missing something..despite everything i have i wasn't as happy as i was before..pelik kan? hehehe,anyways im currently busy with the upcoming Fresh Frequency and ofcourse midterms and also assignments..gila clashing je semua benda memang nak separuh gila dah ni..and to top it all suddenly dari feelings yg xberapa nak prominent tu, things took a worse turn and now everything in my life is crumbling and cracking and hancurlah..come on lah people, why do you guys have to choose now of all the time to express all your ke tak puas hati-an dengan kami? seriously lah instead of making things better..i honestly think that the matter just worsen. Do you guys even notice that I don't talk as much as i used to,that i keep to myself mostly now..it's not that i don't love all of you..i do and very much so, it's just that i can't be myself around you guys anymore now..all of us are hurt i know and though what happened were meant to made things better for all of us, i just couldn't get over the feeling that the truth hurts soo bad that it might take time for things to actually get better or perhaps, though i hope not it never will.Korg...kite sygggg sgt kat korg and kite mmg admit segala kesilapan kite semua and im really sorry..but korg sedar tak yang korg pun byk buat silap kat kite? korg ingat x? kite xrase korg perasan pun yang korg pun byk sakitkan hati kite..kite xsuke ungkit and i compressed everything to myself..i couldnt bring myself to actually tell u all off..cause i love u guys sangat and dont want to lose you guys. Tgk!! tetibe jadi post emo..ni yg malas nak tulis ni.erghhhhhhh timing korg mmg terbaik lah..you guys know kan my personal problems yang seem to worsen everyday and pasal budak-budak bodoh yang buat cerita pasal cousin kite sampai menyusahkan kite and merosakkan friendship kite dengan orang..time ni jugaklah korg nak kne add up diri sendiri to my never ending list of sorrows kan? tq sangat-sangat ye...hadoi..stressed.depressed.icantsleeporeat.saya sangatt sedeyh:(

anywayy to sum it all up my life is now in a critical and extremely complicated stage whereby there comes the time when i sometimes feel like life is worthless but being an extremely optimistic person at heart i've always managed to remind myself that everything comes in pair..and where there is pain somehow somewhere you'll find the happiness that comes with it.(atleast most of the time la)

and soo rain or shine i'll always be fine people.hugs*hugs* and thousand of kisses~


*ohhh GOD i seriously don't understand life~


**susah nak explain everything in one post je..i'll try and explain and update soon.maybe:p

.and i hate myself for loving you.

.life is full of emotions.

.im tired.