::gloom.doom.0r.sunshine.and.rainbow::

The little people ♥

2011-03-28T03:02:00.000-07:00

SKYPE conversation.

Sarah ZR: saya baca blog awak

Sarah ZR: takda my name punnnnnnnnnnn :(

ayna.mustafa: hahahahahaa.....masa tu awk tak nak tegur2 saya lagi

ayna.mustafa: soo mcm mana nak put ur name?

.end.

ok so now since i promised a certain BUDAK KECIK

to make a post about her,

this one is for you

SARAH ZULAIKHA.

So, now that we all know her name..

let's put a face to that beautiful name,

TA-DA!!

COMEL ke awak Sarah?

hihi.

Sarah is 13 years old.

She's a friend of my lil sister Afryna.

Yes,yes another one of them..

apparently i have a lot of them

running around on my Facebook page ;p

She used to attend SMK 11

but she transferred to

SAB

as it is nearer to her house,

I think! haha

(suka hati buat teori sendiri pun boleh aynaa)

SARAH BUDAK SUKAN oooo!

dia kata dia main archery,swimming

and

PETONG!

(i tak tahu petong itu apa so jangan tanya please)

Sarah nanti ajar kita main Petong tau!

hahaha

BRUNO MARS??

hahaha tak..dia bukan kawan saya.

saja nak masukkan his picture cause the budak kecik

apparently is a huge fan of him.

and dia juga suka GLEE.

SARAH lah bukan Bruno Mars yang suka

GLEE.

LOL

Ok soooo, over all budak kecik

yang super duper annoying ni

( main-main je )

is also super duper friendly

and she talks a lot...

pastu she suka cakap i tua!

I emosi if orang cakap I tua.

i tak boleh main pepsi cola

(untuk pengetahuan semua aqilaa ming ckp im to old to want to play pepsi cola! boo you qila)

haha...soo now that my debt to SARAH ZULAIKHA

is paid

I NAK TUNTUT CHOCOLATE I

jangan lupa kasi ok.

pastu jangan suka merajuk

tak sweet lansung

MASAM MACAM CUKA

hihihi

bye.

HUGS

Ayna is Comel-er than Sarah

♥ ♥ ♥

OK on another note,

i nak give a shout out to

MYRZA YUSRIENA

♥

SEBELUM U TUNTUT POST KAT I MACAM SARAH

baik i buat siap-siap.

Myrza hari-hari dengan bantuan Shafiq Sulaiman

telah menambahkan bilangan

notifications di

FACEBOOK

saya.

Nasiblah korg adik-adik kalau tak.....

DUSH DUSH.

(main-main je)

♥

gambar di atas telah di curi dari facebook beliau :)

hurmm actually kan!! dia anak cikgu PJK i dulu!!

hahaha..

dulu saya takut dengan ayah anda ;p

terima kasih sebab selalu cakap saya comel,

anda orang yang ke berapa ribu pun saya tak

tahu lah!!

HAHAHAHA

saya vain! saya tahu,korg tak payah cakap :)

oh btw,

Myrza loves purple macam saya dan Afryna!!

and

is a HUGE BIEBER FAN!!

jumpa kat BIEBER's concert ok

hugs!!

here's a picture of JB just for u

myrza

♥

comelnya justin bieber dalam gambar ni

♥

ok ok almost done here...

kejap

sikit lagi

seriously

WAIT!!

AYNA PALING COMEL

kthanxbye

♥

♥ my love.my sunshine.my rainbow ♥

2011-03-09T10:18:00.000-08:00

i love spending time with my family :)

i'm not really an outgoing or social person

so home is where i feel most comfortable

and safe.

Soo,yeah if u can't reach me trust me i won't be

anywhere else but home ♥

anyways as i loveee spending wayy to much time at home,

guess who i spend most of my time with? Afryna& Kak Belle ofcourse! :)

afryna & belly are my constant companions

belly is my future sister in law!

saya sayang belly byk byk byk byk

hehe

as for my lil sister

since she's already in high school(gosh kan!)

she's grown to be more like a friend to me

rather than just my lil sister

(yang usually sangat annoying.hihi.loveu)

i've always loved her all this while despite what

everyone else thinks but now that she more than

just my sister it's double the love y'all! haha

this is my kakak!

saya rindu kakak sayaaaaaa :(

nak cry kejap.

ok dah...Alyaaaa i wish u are home with us

kenapa u study jauh2 susah nak balik.

nanti balik july ni we go makan2 sampai lebam ok

iloveusosososomuch♥

anyways,

to fill the absence of my sister

i now have 3 new add-on siblings!

so total ada 4 ok!

ramai kan! hihihi

who?

jengjengjeng

nope that's not their name,

haha

they are shafiq,nurul and

afryna's bestie aqila!

adik2 saya semua comel comel belaka.

Aqila is the one holding the cermin yang ada my cute face tu.

as i've mentioned before she's afryna's bestie!

and since mereka sering bersama maka

dia automatically jadi adik saya juga!

Aqilaa is an extremely crazy person once u get to know her!

(awal-awal dia macam orang bisu sikit)

and

not unlike afryna she loves FOOD!

love sangat sangat sangat kot :p

she's obsessed with burgers!

hehehe.

Im soo comel is her favourite ayat

and oklah fine, i agree u memang comel pun.

tapi saya still paling comel lah kan:)

♥loveuaqilaaming♥

the remaining two adik-adik are shafiq & nurul

both of them are actually friends with my

1st add on sibling.

♥ainajasmeen♥

ainasupercomelbaiksweetpemalu

saya kenal aina since dia form 1!

lama kan?

and even though we jarang meet up

my love for my adorable sister ni only grows and grows with

each passing moment.

loveyouforever&always

♥ainajasmeen♥

soo without aina saya mungkin tidak akan

mengenali mereka ini cause by the time i leave school

these two haven't even started high school yet!

shafiq baru nak masuk form 1

and nurul tak lepas UPSR pun lagi :)

hihi

nurul,aina&shafiq!

sayang korg semua

more than a million shooting stars

☆ ★ ☆ ★ ☆

This is Shafiq! :)

he's currently in form 5 and is the KP of afryna's school

which is of course lah my old high school kan!

shafiq is haha tak tahu lah nak explain but in my opinion

he's basically the best kind of guy to have around

be it as friends or a brother.

he's very caring and comel and sangat manja

maybe cause he's the baby in his family kot!

whatever it is i consider myself lucky to have him around.

♥iloveushafiq♥

This is Nurul :)

She's Adie's lil sis apparently..Adie's an old friend of mine and now she's my lil sis jugak.

Adie i amik adik u kthanxbye.hehe.

Nurul is a fun person to be around, and her smile is just soo adorable.

Saya rasa nak curi je Dimple dia tu!

She's a major Caprice fan and thanks to me i made sure Ariz knows about her obsession with him.hihi now saya dah ada geng boleh pergi tgk show Caprice!

Nurul is easy to be around with and

pipi Nurul sangat best untuk dicubit2.

hehe.

♥sayasayangnurulakmallokmanbanyakbanyak♥

you guys colour my days like a rainbow colours the sky

and just like pooh and his friends in Hundred Acre Wood,

i love spending time with my beloved adik2!!

i had a great time these past weeks just spending time

with my adik2 be it face to face or by keeping in touch via

the virtual world yakni Facebook :)

(terima kasih Mark Zuckerberg kerana mencipta FB)

but

semestinya lah saya prefer hangout with u guys in person

like the time we took qila along to ikea!

now that's a fun place to play pretend

kan qila! soo sorry you couldn't come to Petrosains with

afryna,nurul shafiq n i :(

takpe next time we go again and nanti we all go sunway lagoon

sama2 ok:)

rabbit and entah tak tahu apa haiwan hijau ni.

hihi

aqila&myself!

♥

and

here are some of the pictures of me,afryna,shafiq & nurul

being crazy & jakun at Petrosains♥

afryna takut dgn Dino ni! hehe

ps.nurul&shafiq sgt comel in this picture

afryna comel & her even comel-er sister!

haha..

saya nak hurricane machine ni pliss

boleh buat jadi hair dryer!

BEST!

Nurul.Shafiq.Afryna

gambar ni cantik sebab saya yg snap!

waiting for the helicopter!

and cause memang betul ada helicopter,

shafiq bought me

a kinder bueno!

thanks adeq

♥♥♥

her smile is just soo contagious!

nak cubit2 pipi awk byk2 kali!

hehe

this is one of my favourite picture!

nurul drive lorry!!

Hebat kan?

Korg tak tgk dia bwk tractor lagi

pasti semua terpegun :)

♥

my matahari

she's my chicken! comel kan!

sayang baby

banyak2!

♥

tetapi, petrosains would have been better if all of us were together!

we missed having Aina & Aqila around,

Qilaaaaa,

mesti lagi fun tengok u jadi gila kan!

hehehe

and ofcourse

aina was always on our minds that day,kalau in our hearts everyday.

(ada je yang sebut ur name that day.rindu ok)

she was supposed to come along but then

she had to work.

the last time i saw you was what? 2years ago or was it three?

anyways i hope to see u again soon!

saya rindu kamu paling banyak ok

♥love.miss.sayang.rindu♥

and!

merujuk kepada gambar di atas, Nurul jealous tak? hihi

saje je nak show off sikit

Kak Ayna memang suka mengacau hidup

mat topi Elmo ni:)

Ariz if u terbaca ni

i nak puji u ni

Caprice is awesome

and

Ariz itu baik

tu je lah! hehe

ok soo besides hanging out and keeping in touch with my beloved adik2 and mengacau hidup Caprice yang rajin melayan tu,

i've also been been busy sharpening my cooking skills especially in the area that i rarely thread on.

KUIH-KUIH MELAYU.

you see everyone kept saying that im not melayu-ish enough and that im far too westernized sometimes.

Well westernized or not i boleh buat kuih melayu ok!!

kamu kamu yang bercakap tu reti ke?

hee :)

my ohh soo adorable mini keria.

yummy!

( saya suka puji diri sendiri)

and see saya dah reti buat

kuih talam

(tak terer sangat tapi boleh lah)

and and and

i really should start reading again.

playing too much video games lately.

bahaya betul :)

ayna oh ayna

insaflah

tsk2.

ok dah habis dah bye!

hihihi

♥

it's all about them.them.them.them ♥

2011-03-09T09:28:00.000-08:00

you know the old saying that goes..a picture is worth a thousand words? well,here are tons of them to make up for the absence of postings on my blogs:) don't forget to tally up all those words!~

this is nabil& ika.

they're away on legal attachment

so this time around my ixora house will be quiet without them

i'm feeling a bit sad actually but hey life goes on

and there's my two other housemates to have fun with..

say hye to Asmira comel & Rhea kepeng! hehe

Asmira & Rhea are bestfriends!

they've known each other for 7 years! awesome kan!

though tak boleh beat ika n qila lah kan. they'll be the sunshine

to my gloomy days in Melaka Bandar MEMBOSANkan:)

ini lah rupa atika ber-legal attachment:)

very lawyer-ish kan!

i miss u soo much cuzzie!

siapa nak teman i ber three layer tea and roti tisu ni:((

tapikan!!

Qila is still with me in Melaka..yeayy ada teman ♥

so,it's not all bad i'll still have qila around

together with my two crazy homies Asmira& Rhea ♥

but i'll definitely miss spending time being crazy only us

three ♥

but we'll reunite

for

JUSTIN BIEBER

ok girls? hihihi excitednyaaa!

on another note if i'll be missing atika zulkiply

guess who'll miss her even more

and have a worse time adapting to

her absence more?

her MONKEY lah!

AZRI NASRULLAH!

I pity u mat! takpe nnt u follow i balik weekend ok? hee..

they are still going strong!

sweet kan:)

♥

i heart & miss my

friends

-the.end-

♥ too bad for you,cause i really don't care ♥

2010-05-07T00:49:00.000-07:00

To whom this may concern,

hye u,
u ingat i kesah ke with all the things yang u wrote about me?
u ingat i nak sedih? u ingat i nak marah? u ingat i peduli ke?
kesian awak lah..silap orang lah kak.. saya tak kesah pun, saya rasa bangga adalah..
i mean, i must mean soooo much to you kan cause even after all this time u still nak cakap pasal i:) important nya i!! bangga saya!~

tak payah lah susah2 nak sound2 org ke ape if u don't know the complete story...i rase amused with your childish attempts to make urself look better than me, pathetic tau? mesti u sebenarnye insecure kan? pastu ada hati cakap org childish.

but whatever it is, i maafkan u and your actions sebab i tau people like u just loves doing things without thinking it through..people like u are just too self-centered to see your own flaws, u just see the flaws of others. soo for your information my dear,your words don't mean a thing to me and it doesn't effect me in any way whatsoever, soo why don't u do urself a big favour and just take whatever opinions u have on me or they way i live my life, what i say and how to choose my friends and shove it up ur u know where:)) please and tq:)

so my darling dear, next time jangan nak pandai2 cakap ok...cuz ur not better than me no matter how hard u try to convince urself that u are..and maybe, just maybe ur the one with the broken mirror:)

ps. i know more than i let on, so stop it with all your assumptions:) and oh, i am perfect..i am the perfect me anyone will ever find, soo diamlah gila!

♥ ayna ♥

some things can never be replaced.

2010-05-06T10:16:00.000-07:00

some things can never be replaced,
be it a sacred diary misplaced,
or simply a broken antique vase,
all you'll get are tears on your face..

some memories can never be erased,
the good and the bad,
the happy and the sad,
you'll always remember even when ur mad..

some love are meant for goodbye,
no matter how you cry,
and no matter how hard you try,
sometimes it's just better to let it die..

some friends never last for more than a day ,
for lies after lies in the words they say,
but dear soulmates everyday i'd pray,
forever in my heart would you all please stay...

no matter what had happened and what may happen in the future, you girls are my soulmates forever, and all those memories we had together, i'll forever cherished.

:: in memory of what used to be ::

ps.kita tengok je lah ape nak jadi kan korg...
kalau ada jodoh we'll always be friends kan
tak hangout tak semestinya dalam hati dah tak sayang:)

testing 1,2,3

2010-05-04T21:12:00.000-07:00

they are the sugar&spice of my life

hello. testing 1,2,3. haha..i doubt if anyone visits my blog anymore since it's been vacant of any new posting for almost a year now. As i sat in front of my lappie tensing on the fact that i have exam esok, i guess writing off a few things from my mind would be a great stress reliever. Im not really sure of what to write and i've given up the idea of updating on the things that had happened from the past months..THAT would take forever! well ok, just a hint, let's just say that most of my previous post and the people i've mentioned, well they're all gone! not dead or what, just that we've all moved on..different friends, different circles and all that. Am i sad? im not sure, sometimes maybe when there are these undescribable moments that made me wish that nothing has changed,and that feeling of i wish i could talk to ______, he/she would understand/listen/know what to do... but for most of the time, im fine and im happy, i have my own circle of friends and they fill my life with laughter and joy dan ofcourse lah ika is still here and now there's ajie juga!! Soo..yeahh im happy with the way things are now:) Ohhhh!! Im currently taking driving lessons! hahaha...soon i'll be able to drive! yeayy! yeahh i know it's not a big deal to others, but it is to me..saya malas nak amik before this:p haha ok lah..i really have to study..dear blog, im sorry for this horrible post. i promise i'll do better next time:)

the little things in life makes me happiest the most

♥Love and Star☆

2009-08-20T13:49:00.000-07:00

☆☆☆

Had a great week:)
Made me realized i'm loved by many
and
no matter what
::saya tau awak pun♥saya jugak::

love,

ayna.comel

::Even after 2 years the greenstar still shines in my heart::

my personality and me..

2009-08-12T09:06:00.000-07:00

i was surfing the net searching for interesting things to do to fill my time and i found this website of personality quizzes..it was fun and here are the results..hahaha:) have a fun read!~

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Analysis of your love style:

You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.

minty.fresh!

2009-07-29T14:31:00.000-07:00

sayang korg!!

this post i'd like to dedicate especially for my minty darling:)

dearest mint,
im soo sorry for frightening you earlier today with my behavior.
hahaha..sorry lah mint ayna xsehat lah sayang..bukan sengaja tau..
ayna tau mint pelik tengok ayna macam tu...tapi apa-apa pun thanx
sebab risau pasal ayna..and jage ayna semua tadi..time lepak
kat habeeb ngan mint and ika tadi tu lah baru ayna dapat rase
im being myself after some time now..hee thanx for that girls..
tapi kita agak exhausted lah sebab dah lama tak bercakap dengan
nada excited dan laju ye kwn2..
oh mint..im truly happy to have you as my friend..
percayalah anda bukan personality zero or xcantik or whatever lahh..
untuk ayna mint cantik.funny.caring.rajin and definitely someone to be missed
when you are not around:) cuti ini saya akan rindu kamu sgtt tau! huhu<3>

ps.ketot!! jgn jelez yo! i wat post tuk mintt..hehehe..rasenye xperlu buat post pun awk tahu kan how much i love u n appreciate you always being by my side kan? and kite tau awk sedey tgk kite mcm ni...tapi im fine laaa..hahhaa..ayna roxx kot~ as long as ur by my side..we'll get through all this just fine:) millions hugs and kisses<3

how.do.i.survive .this?

2009-07-27T21:44:00.000-07:00

another sleepless night went by,
i really don't know why i can't sleep at all..
it was horrible..every few minutes i would woke up with a start
as i felt like i was falling..this happens every time i started to drift off...
the whole night i was dizzy and had to run to the bathroom a few times to throw up..
muntah lah sangat kan..makan pun tidak..nak muntah ape? muntah air yg pahit gilerr je lah.
since i can't sleep until it was morning..i get up and get ready for class.. in the lift i suddenly can't breath and almost fainted. but i did managed to get to class..however in my current condition i wasn't really paying any attention. My health is deteriorating...how am i to study? i can't get sick not now..i have soo many things to do before the midterm break. im exhausted and i feel like crying even while im posting this. i really really really want to go home......
im having trouble breathingg........
im soo cold.

mama,ayna nak balik pleaseT_T

Entah.biasa je lah..

2009-07-27T00:22:00.000-07:00

Lately,
people keep asking me how im feeling.. and my usual answer would be
entah,biasa je la.

the thing is i don't feel biasa je..but i really don't know how to express how im actually feeling to others. i feel soo many mixed emotions at the same time that i myself can't really figure out how im really feeling..how do you tell people that you don't know how you feel. how do you tell people that you're feeling sad,mad,confused,tired,hurt,lonely,betrayed, but at the same time an equal amount of happiness,confident,love and excitement? hahaha..gila kan? but those emotions are what i'm actually feeling and weirdly, all at the same time too. therefore i opted for the easy way out and simply answer..
entah,biasa je la.

ps.kadang-kadang saya rasa saya ni ada masalah mental.

.memang bullshit.

.xoxo.

.lagu ini sangat disturbing.
|terlalu.cinta|
.rossa.

Jangan dekat atau
Jangan datang kepadaku lagi
Aku semakin tersiksa
Karena tak memilikimu

Ku coba jalani hari
Dengan pengganti dirimu
Tapi hatiku selalu
Berpihak lagi padamu

Mengapa semua ini
Terjadi kepadaku

Tuhan maafkan diri ini
Yang tak pernah bisa
Menjauh dari angan tentangnya

Namun apalah daya ini
Bila ternyata sesungguhnya
Aku terlalu cinta dia.

Tapi hatiku selalu
Berpihak lagi padamu

Mengapa semua ini
Terjadi kepadaku

Tuhan maafkan diri ini
Yang tak pernah bisa
Menjauh dari angan tentangnya

Namun apalah daya ini
Bila ternyata sesungguhnya
Aku terlalu cinta dia.

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**why won't you just let go,when i was trying to leave?**

writing to clear off my mind...

2009-07-26T05:18:00.000-07:00

Saya busy.tiada masa sangat untuk mengupdate kan blog.
hehehe..well it's mostly because im the type of person yang suke waste her time day dreaming or talk nonsense and annoy people than do something constructive with her time:P

okeyhh soo what's new? hurmm..well the last few months was awesome..that was last sem lah..
i had soo many new friends and telah melakukan pelbagai activities yang ranging from stupid to productive to tiring yet soo much fun..new things and all that semua during nak dekat finals..bagus betul kan? student yg hebatt;) karaoke for hours,movies and movies again,searching for food regardless the time and place..memang gila lah kan~ macam free sangat je dulu kan..hahahaha..semua salah azrul.abu.bob.anep.kakmira.jami.joy.dll.disturbedd~

butttt that was sooooo last sem..this sem started out quite nicely to be honest..walaupun kami missing seseorg kerana die perlu berpractical,we had fun trips and outing still with all the rest lah kan..jonker la..alor gajah semata2 nak cari cucur udang and coconut shake lah..truly unforgettable laa..but the best would be our picnic trip to pd..ramai2 sgt kott..had a picnic there..and though the planning and execution of the trip was extremely exhausting, it was definitely worth it.My friends and i are in charge of the food..and imagine having to cook for 20++ ppl. memang kenduri laa kan.Mereka kata macaroni saya sedapp(saje je nak bangga ni!!)

.having fun our way.

All in all it was fun..everyone had fun tetapi as usual kami yg mengada n gedik ni mmg xlahh nak main2 lari kat pantai kan..panas.pasir.and us? not a very good combo..hahaha..soo what we did kat pantai would be what we do best..camwhoring laaa!! hahaha..and after penat berposing maut..we just sat under the shades on the lazy chairs yg kami sewa rm3 satu kerusi tu and watch everyone else ber banana boat and also mandi-manda and bermain bola di tepi pantai.tengok orang je pun kami sangat seronok kot.hahaha,anyway PD sgt funn:p

As life goes on mestilah ada ups n down kan...
soo after that segala yang up up dan happy happy berakhir mestilah tiba mase untuk menangis pula kan?....but at first biaselah life resumes..classes dah start balik.. lectures and all..and in addition to that i was elected as hi-comm of mmusic..saya pun xtahu kenapa..mungkin mereka suke backdrop ENCORE yang kaler2 tu kott:p hahahaha~ and everything seems complete..i seem to have everything tetapi ada this not really prominent feeling that im missing something..despite everything i have i wasn't as happy as i was before..pelik kan? hehehe,anyways im currently busy with the upcoming Fresh Frequency and ofcourse midterms and also assignments..gila clashing je semua benda memang nak separuh gila dah ni..and to top it all suddenly dari feelings yg xberapa nak prominent tu, things took a worse turn and now everything in my life is crumbling and cracking and hancurlah..come on lah people, why do you guys have to choose now of all the time to express all your ke tak puas hati-an dengan kami? seriously lah instead of making things better..i honestly think that the matter just worsen. Do you guys even notice that I don't talk as much as i used to,that i keep to myself mostly now..it's not that i don't love all of you..i do and very much so, it's just that i can't be myself around you guys anymore now..all of us are hurt i know and though what happened were meant to made things better for all of us, i just couldn't get over the feeling that the truth hurts soo bad that it might take time for things to actually get better or perhaps, though i hope not it never will.Korg...kite sygggg sgt kat korg and kite mmg admit segala kesilapan kite semua and im really sorry..but korg sedar tak yang korg pun byk buat silap kat kite? korg ingat x? kite xrase korg perasan pun yang korg pun byk sakitkan hati kite..kite xsuke ungkit and i compressed everything to myself..i couldnt bring myself to actually tell u all off..cause i love u guys sangat and dont want to lose you guys. Tgk!! tetibe jadi post emo..ni yg malas nak tulis ni.erghhhhhhh timing korg mmg terbaik lah..you guys know kan my personal problems yang seem to worsen everyday and pasal budak-budak bodoh yang buat cerita pasal cousin kite sampai menyusahkan kite and merosakkan friendship kite dengan orang..time ni jugaklah korg nak kne add up diri sendiri to my never ending list of sorrows kan? tq sangat-sangat ye...hadoi..stressed.depressed.icantsleeporeat.saya sangatt sedeyh:(

anywayy to sum it all up my life is now in a critical and extremely complicated stage whereby there comes the time when i sometimes feel like life is worthless but being an extremely optimistic person at heart i've always managed to remind myself that everything comes in pair..and where there is pain somehow somewhere you'll find the happiness that comes with it.(atleast most of the time la)

and soo rain or shine i'll always be fine people.hugs*hugs* and thousand of kisses~

*ohhh GOD i seriously don't understand life~

**susah nak explain everything in one post je..i'll try and explain and update soon.maybe:p

.and i hate myself for loving you.

.life is full of emotions.

.im tired.

pages fr0m the past.

2009-01-28T03:17:00.000-08:00

as i was cleaning up my room today..which i loath doing fyi! hahaha..i found some things that brings back memories from the past..one thing in particular, my hi-skool magazine. bahawanye saye sgtttttt ugly ok time skola(mcmlah sekarang cantik kan)wah.wah.wah=p

anywayy..as i was browsing through my skool mag..memories that i've forgotten suddenly just came flooding through my mind..it was the magazine from when i was in form 5..which ofcourse means all the more to me..i realized that my hi-skool years are some of the best years of my life..as i went through the mag i remembered the mischiefs that my friends and i are always in(we are such noisy troublemakers)..haha..once cikgu suraya tibe-tibe panggil my full name kat assembly cause i was talking too much! NURAIN NOORMUSTAFA KAMAL laa kan cikgu..hahaha..i suddenly remembered all the forgotten crushes..i can't believe that i had the hugest crush on some guy who's three years younger than me!!(die xnmpk mcm budak kecik pun!!) ohh FK..anda sgtttt cute okeyh.(seriously tau! nnt i post his pics kayh) lalalala~

with the good memories comes the bad...i was looking at our PBSM picture..apparently kami hard-core dan conquer PBSM,Basketball club and Kelab Seni Kreatif and also the editorial board(which explains why the mag is full of our pictures.hahaha)..anyway i remembered the day the picture was taken so vividly!! it was such a horrible day..i had the biggest first fight with my bestfriend Alya Qaryna. for such a stupid reason pulak tu!!! hahaha...dalam gambar tu mata alya still bengkak kot! sorry hunn=D whylah i selalu fight with you for stupid things that are not worth it kan! 0utlah!! hee..love u n miss u sotong kurita ku:) you're my soulmate and my savior (i always get myself in trouble.kurita kan head girl mesti lah tolong ayna.haha)

hee..well from the pictures that tells millions of stories...the stories of my hi-skool life is filled with loads of fun(naturally)...major dramas(again naturally!!)..unrequited love stories or major heartbreak..love fulfilled..stupid fights..loads of gossiping(per usual)..knowledge(at least i'd like to think s0o)..but most of all the eternal friendship and bonding that i've gained throughout my hi-school year. To all my friends..i know you guys thinks that i'm putting my MMU friends before you guys..and admittedly that may be true..haha..tapi bukan salah saye..the important thing is you guys will always be in my heart forever and always. You guys made my Hi-skool years in Project Hi-sk0ol w0rthwhile and i will never trade any sec0nds 0f it f0r all the m0ney in the w0rld..fr0m the b0tt0m of my heart.i do l0ve y0u guys and thank y0u:)

these are the pages fr0m my hi-skool mag! i miss and l0ve my classmates.
(click on the pictures to enlarge)

-us in 10 years fr0m when we were hi-sko0l seniors-

-scenes fr0m the m0vie that's 0ur life-

-5 anggerik 06'-

-0ur fun and laughter-

-st0ry 0f us straight from my heart-
-please do enlarge the picture ab0ve-

Missing my Perfect friends:(

2008-07-17T01:17:00.001-07:00

//PERFECT FRIENDS//

It's been a long time since i blogged..except for that vote collecting post f0r nabil..hehe..

<3<3<3

~the truth is i wanted to blog everyday..but my life is not that interesting for me to fill the pages of my blog every single day...especially now that im at home doing nothing except cooking a whole lot of new dishes..soo maybe if i do blog everyday, the only thing i'll post are recipes that i've tried..hahaha..but on a more serious note i have a very big and major heartache..and NO..this time it's not about any guy(given up on guys f0r the time being) My heart aches f0r my friends..living at h0me may have it perks..like im able to watch tv everyday..c00k many varieties of dishes(im a sucker f0r c0oking) and of course i can spend m0re time with my families..but with everyday that passes...i feel a bit empty inside..there's a part of my life that's missing..sure i keep intouch with my friends via chat or friendster.myspace or even facebook..but it's not the same with seeing them face to face..hanging out with them..fighting..making a lot of n0ises as we sing and dance and g0ssip ar0und...

++stars and friendship++

++picture perfect m0ment++

++hanim..diva saye++

++s0rry ja..had t0..miss ya++

~i miss my classmates..even if i d0n't talk t0 every single one of them..i guess it's enough that i get t0 see you all during class..just seeing all of us packed t0gether in class..watching jeff asking wayy t0 many question t0 the lecturer...rishi.amirul.david and the wh0le geng at the fr0nt of the class..rishi with his laptop..and at the back of the class there would be shakira and friends..danial and friends..irshad and his friends...yeahh...i like evryone of my classmates..and i miss all of them....there are two girls in class that i sangat sayang eventhough im not that close with them and they are tee and aimuni..aimuni no matter what will always care ab0ut what i do and how i am doing..she never says no if i asked her for help and always kept her mouth shut with the secrets i told her..aimuni would always send me text messages on new information in class whenever im absent..i know from her actions that she truly cared about me and i cherished her as my friend..as for tee she's adorable laaa...hehe..she may be quiet but i really like her as she's very sweet and helpful...i'll forever be thankful that we were assigned to be in the same debate team in first sem english..cause that was the starting point of hopefully an everlasting friendship...

++the greatest bunch of people in MMU!!++

++Sayang++

~and ofcourse as most people would usually see me with my permanent companions..qila.eka.nabil...these three are my 3 fav0urite and m0st l0ved people among all my friends..i have to admit that i have two wonderful bestfriends from hi-skool and yes they still are my best friends..but im s0rry alya and eryn i hope you guys w0n't be hurt with my statement..as much as i love both of you..nothing can compare to the love and friendship i received from qeela.eka.nabil...if i have to kill myself in order to save anyone of them..i'd do it in a second...im not saying that our friendship is perfect and that they are perfect..N0..they are far from perfect(no offence girls) but they are perfect f0r me and that's why im friends with them even with their imperfections...i have this guy friend..he asked me why im friends with qeela and eka..they are n0t perfect and i can do better...well my dear the thing is im not perfect and if they can accept me as i am..why can't i return the favor..besides those who seeks perfection are t0 live unfruitful and lonely life as perfection d0es n0t exists in this w0rld...yes..my heart ache for my friends...from my classmates..to my other friends such as rijal..hanim..ayu...jaja..syam..and many others..to the bestest friends that i've ever had..eka.qila and nabil i love u all with every fiber of my being..however imperfect you guys are to others..you all will always be perfect ..my perfect friends..i constantly worry bout you guys there..do take care and wait for my return...kite rindu korg sangat2 tau!!

++chenta hati saye++

~Yes..im missing all of my friends...hope to see you guys soon..and take care my perfect friends...

++partners in crime++

qeela...hye arnab kesayangan kite!! awak kite sayang sangat kat awk..sometimes i might disagree with what you do..but it still doesn't change the fact that i love u tau!! kite risau pasal awak tau..awk pegi kelas sume sorg2..bahaya..kite xda nak teman awk soo awk jage diri elok2 eh..avoid dark places(not only places tau!! hint*) eh sayang..kite tau awk sayang fatso tapi jgn lupe..sayang diri awk lebih tau!! hee...awk tolong jage eka kay kat sane...study hard eh..jangan repeat our past mistakes..kite dgn awk dah go through byk benda bersama kan..kite nangis..kite gelak..kite gossip sume sama2...every single day kite kat rumah ni kite rindu sangat time dgn awk..tangkap gamba dalam kelas..pusing satu campus sama2...sanggup tguu lif walaupun dah lambat sebab awk pakai heels..kite rindu lah sekarang kite tido xda siapa pun pegang tangan kite..i miss my bonda yg selalu manjakan i..selalu masakkan maggi.spaghetti.kari.sardin semua tuk kite walaupun kite bole masak sendiri sebenarnye..kite suke bile awk iron baju kite..even tolong lipat baju kite yg belambak2 tu..tolong pack baju kite semua..you are truly motherly qeela...and im missing you badly...loving you with all my heart<3

++my little mermaid++

nabil...nab sayang!! i love u tau...kite rindu awk laa..lame xdengar awk jerit2 n nyanyi2 tau..rindu kat mermaid yg satu nie..nab jaga diri elok2 eh..jangan nak menyorok kat stesyen bus sampai lewat malam lagi eh sayang..kiteorg risau tau pasal awk..pastu jangan asek nak berdiet je..awk tu dah kurus kering dah..ikan kering pun isi lagi byk tau!! hehehe...jaga relationship awk ngan boy tu elok2 tau..u guys are meant for each other..serupe je perangai..2x5!!(ckp kat larlink i rindu die sgt) haha..cik turtle kesayangan saye nie..kite xnak awk cepat putus asa on things lagi tau nabil..gagal sekali xsemestinye gagal selamanye..and ni bukan sbb estee tu je..ini kite ckp generally..baik nyanyi..baik modelling or studies..ur good in every single one of these things..believe in yourself and strive harder to achieve your dreams..never give up..awak tau kan beza antara loser ngan winner is that winners never quit kan..soo awk jgn cepat giv up k!! kite,ika,qila and family awk sayang nabil as nabil bukan nabil yg lawyer or nabil yang model or nabil yg singer..nabil is nabil..and we'll always support you no matter what you want to be..nabil jujur kite cakap kite memang sayang awk tau..jangan lupe jage si ketot yg suke mara2 tu!! hehee..nnt i balik sane kite pasang lagu tattoo kay!! hehehe..i love u my very own mermaid<3
++loving yet deadly cousin??++

eka...awk jangan lupe makan tau..jangan nak skip2 pulak..awak tu cepat gastric..nanti sakit sape susah?? awak jangan jadi hantu online cam ngan kite dulu lagi tau..nnt xleh bangun tido pulak..kan susah..hehehe..tapi kalau online jgn lupe ym kite..kite rindu awk sangat..eka jage diri awak elok2 tau kat sane..ada macam2 temptation tapi kne ingat sebelum buat ape2 kay..awaklah teman kite dari kecik sampai sekarang..nanti birthday awk kite pastikan kite celebrate eh..cik kak oi..jangan mara2 je tau..kne belajar bersabar yee..nnt kite dtg sane tuk kelas..kalau boleh kite bawakkan awk makanan sedap2 ehh...awak kalau teringin ape2 bagitau kite ehh..nnt kite try buatkan tau..i'll do anything for u kan..awk ngan kite kan the deadly cousin bak kate seorg pakcik tu..hehehee..jgn lupe update kite on any new news and gossips..awk kan x0xo g0ssip girl(yeahh right)..hehhee..nanti kite dah balik sana kite teman awk keluar selalu eh..jangan nak asik merungut boring2 je..btw kitty kite yg spastik tu rindu awk laa..dah lame awk xjek die..hehehe..i love you cuz..take care<3>

++friendship and love eternally++

+Charlie’s angels+3 musketeers off<3<3<3>

<3<3peace!!

THE next face of Estee Lauder??

2008-07-12T09:06:00.000-07:00

FARAH MAZIZ NABIL...
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BUT..SHE'S GONNA NEED YOUR VOTE..
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LOVE YOU ALL<3

Qeela's Birthday~~

2008-05-12T02:03:00.000-07:00

As the cl0ck struck midnight..0n the 8th May 0f 2008...3girls.ika.nabil and ayna were waiting at the starry astaka..f0r the arrival of s0meone special.some0ne wh0 is always cl0se t0 their hearts.s0meone whom they cherish and l0ve with all their hearts..

~~~~that s0me0ne is~~~~

//Nor Aqilah bte. Ahmad Nasar//

unf0rtunately, f0r us..our surprise celebrati0n for our bel0ved b0nda clashed pulakk with her boyfriend,Fats0's celebrati0n...
s0oo..al-kisahnye aqeela tiba di Astaka half-an hour late~~~

see how many people truly LOVE you Qila??

anyway...0ur small surprise celebrati0n is just a spur 0f the m0ment act..
we were actually g0ing t0 celebrate qila's bday after 0ur MUET speaking test as
Aqila had been yearning f0r ice-cream cake at Baskin R0bins f0r months already..

but since Qila had been feeling d0wn that day,
we th0ght that we w0uld try t0 cheer her up a bit..

and s0o..

we b0ught 3burgers at the makcik ix0ra burger stall for the birthday girl qila.ika n myself and one h0t d0g f0r the even h0tter lady nabil yg konon2 diet la kan..
3 sparkling RIBENA (aQeela's fav)
0ne can 0f c0ke..
one tUpperware of PopCorn..

and for the best item 0f all

one chocolate strawberry squiggle

with 2 candles on t0p!!!

~~~hahahaha~~~

//that was the only thing we c0uld find at last minute//

anyway...30minutes after 12...

we were happily singing happy birthday t0 qeela

opening her birthday cards...

have her read them out loud...

eating all the f00d...

yummy..burger makcik ix0ra is the best laaa...

and the best part???

ph0to time of c0urse!!!! hahahahaha

jaja..was there t0o..snapping pictures..

and we managed t0 snap a few of her pictures as well...

hahahaha..bluwekkk~~~

and s0o..here are s0me of the pictures we t0ok...

0n the special day 0f

8th May 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AQEELA

//kami.sayang.awak.sampai.mati//

//the tak seberapa party snacks//

with.L0VE.from.us

//sQuiggle.Cake??//

//a.sPecial.date//

t0.celebRate.a.sPecial.s0me0Ne

// Kami.sayang.Aqeela//

Qeela sorry f0r the small scale celebrati0n...
walaupun tak ada cake with cream yg sedap tu and atas ada jelly strawberry
and tak semeriah the celebrati0n Fats0 did f0r y0u...
with all the guitar serenade tu semua
we really h0pe u had a great time...
kami chenta awak....

~x0x0~

<3<3<3

Happy Birthday Rishi<3

2008-05-07T05:09:00.000-07:00

Rishi's birthday cake fr0m his bel0ved friends<3
aren't they sweet=)

My Fav0urite class rep..
MMU's Maestro of Retro Himself..
Mr.RR Hebatt!!

Happy Birthday my friend=)

Juz wanna wish my dearest friend/world's best class rep Rishi
a very Happy Birthday..yesterday!!!
hehehehehehehe.... //
sayang kamu wahai class rep kami yg sangat hebatt!!!

*hope u'll have a great life ahead of u..

*may all ur wishes come true..

*may GOD bless u always...

*may u'll still be YMCA-ing until ur old and wrinkly..hahahaha

*hope u enjoy the chocolates...

Ps-the chocolates are nothing compared t0 ur gift of friendship to me all this while Rishi.. truly from the bottom of my heart..thank you=) RR will always be hebatt t0 me<3>

//Love.Lost.and.Found//

2008-05-05T14:04:00.000-07:00

//LOVE.AND.SURPRISES//

//My.Love.Lost.and.Found//
Hey guys..let's talk about love and life today..
why do we need to find love?? is it true that we have to search for love..and what is really love??
Love and Life..well they are full of lies and expectations that we probably will never fulfill...i seriously don't understand life and am even more confused when it comes to love..why do people fall in love?? i mean love hurts...BAD!! and yet everyone is looking..searching for that thing called love..why?
well i guess the pure joy and happiness of love for juz a little while beats the hurt that love brings along with it.However for me love is still painful and the pain that comes with love lasts a life time..a quote from my mum- "THE JOY OF BEING IN LOVE LAST FOR ONLY A SECOND,YET THE PAIN THAT LOVE BRINGS LASTS A LIFETIME"however it doesn't mean that i d0n't love..hahaha..love for me comes in various forms and not just that one kind of lovey dovey BF.GF type of love..that's the kind of love that hurts the most apparently..hahaha..
oh..well enough about all this love hurt stuff..im bored..haha...now im going to share my love story. Being me,im the type of girl that when i fall for someone..i fall hard and deep..which a special friend of mine told me is very dangerous..The 1st time i've fallen in love was when i was in form 3...and eventhough things didn't work out..i've still loved him for years..even when im already in MMU..until that fateful night at a musical event when i saw someone...It was LIKE at 1st sight for me..but then im realistic and i dissmissed him as just another one of my crushes..then fate took toll whereby since that night..i always seem to see him around campus..and being me i would gush to my friends about how cute he is and bla..bla..bla..GIRLS!! hahaha.....And then,i don't really know how nor do i care that time..we suddenly became friends and then even closer friends..I would bug him everyday..telling him everything,making him wish me goodluck for my presentations and exams..i would give him goodluck cards and chocolates..just for the fun of it...everytime we chat online..all we ever do is argue..like who's better,cuter and all the stupid things you can argue about..arguing with him is a lot of fun..ofcourse he always wins as he just loves to bully me but still that's the way things are between us and i was happy.He always seems to be there when i needed someone to talk to or someone for me to pour my feelings or when im all stressed out he would be the one to destress me.He seems to know what makes me feel better and how to make sure im alright....and i guess that was how he made me fall for him..

Unfortunately for me the one guy that makes me happy is always the one guy that's wrong for me and the one person that would make me sad...
quote from a song
" The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart"
yeap that's him~~
Life as we all know it is unfair and as things turn out..
i found out that nothing is ever what they seems...
and neither is he...
i found out things that made me sad..
saddest i've ever been my whole life..in this month that had passed i've like my heart was broken to tiny pieces that can never be mended..as i had never liked anyone as much as i liked him..My fault for not being realistic...the thing is i don't really know him nor do i understand him or the way he thinks..nor do i want to know...i've never felt as broken as i am now..you know when u called and said that you never thought i'd be the one to do that to you...let's just say that the statement goes vice versa....now im much happier and im coping well in my life, i still feel broken but with the help of my beloved friends,family and a certain SUPERMANand his girlfriend...im happier and living life one step at a time..to Mr.Superman thank you for always reminding me to be happy always and supporting me all the time and the fact that you cared is enough to put a smile on my face and thank you for introducing me to your GF..she rocks and i'll always remember what she said the first time we had a conversation,that he's not worth one drop of my tears nor one frown on my forehead..and ofcourse to my cousin ika who is always by my side everytime i cried..thanx for your willingness to listen to me choking because i cried too much no matter what the time was. I love you soo much and i also love Nabil and Qila and heck even Jaja..WITHOUT YOU GUYS,i'd probably still be moping around crying too much and wasting my life..i Love you all....you see eventhough i thought i lost LOVE the truth is that when i lost him i found more LOVE than the one i lost..i found love in my two new friends and more LOVE from my ever eternal bestfriend(sayang kamu atika) and the friends i could always count on...Love is a weird yet wonderful thing..it can come in many various unexpected ways..it may just surprise you on where you'll find it.....soo don't try to find love...it will find you..i can definitely say that im much happier now than i've been before...and that
LOVE had finally found Me
<3<3<3

//My.Friends.My.World//

w0rds.Untold~

2008-05-05T13:45:00.000-07:00

Hey all..
i've finally start blogging again..
as u all can see i've change a few things on my blog..
Hurmm..to tell the truth i haven't really stop blogging..
it's just that i didn't post it here..
i post blogs on my myspace instead..hehehe
but since Rishi and Tee keep asking me to update my blog..
i guess,it won't hurt me to do so and soo here goes....
many things had happened to me during these last few months...
Things that i can never forget and will probably never got the time to tell you all about..
however,i will try my best to update you guys on what had happened during these past few months,during my absence from the blogging world....
all the joy,sadness and the wonderful yet horrifying experience of my life and my perspective on
life.love.loss.and.luck...
let's just say that life as we know it is most complicated..
and here is where i pour
My Words Untold~~